saiyagok's Journal

(Me)

Bad Things

When i want to DO a wallpaper or vector, when i want to think, how to do it, then, if...is like... can I do it right now?.. things like that... always something happen. Is not the right moment, then "the" moment just "leave my mind".

I'm a totally sensorial designer, that's a troubble! (mean that everyting i DO has a meaning for me, almost de 90% of my works). See, feel, smell, taste, memories, suffer, hated, loved, pain, food, laugh, cry, street, people, the sense of the moment is Essential... I suposE! I MusT to control that kind of feelings... T_T i am a mess...

I live and die doing this (or to design something else)

so if a feel bad, if I lost the moment, if is cold outside >< , if my head is full of pain (omg) if someone pissed mi off ¬¬ If i fighting with someone... arghf.

Another thing is, i'm sooooo lazy (ehehe ^^U) some times I think about the wall (or vector or anything else) and i said "oh yeah... i have to do that, is almost finished, but.. oh bugs bunny!" ehehe ^^U or I'm all the time thinking how to fix something on the wall.. then i said "oh yeah that.. sure, that's the answer.. but if I change the color? nou..is better like that.. but would be nice to try... nou! I will waste my time..." then I, when I am on the program i just DON'T do the thing that i supose have to do and I play around with colors!! or adding anything that i will NOT use into de wallpaper!!! arrrghhfff!... but always i learn something new.. thet i get frustrate because it seem i never will finish the damn wallapaper.

Oh.. I'm seriously low... but It depends too..sometimes i'm freaking crazy turned on and i just pass all the day and night into de PC and.. i forget eat, i forget the clock everything.. then i feel tired xD ehehe ^^U silly :P I just get distracted so easy!! what can I do?! I do hundred things simultaneously!! (don't do that kids)

When i have a "flash" idea, a good idea, how exactly would be the wall, then I create the file, put the image inside, add notes and done. (never touch the wall, after months ¬_¬) bad so bad...

i have to "awake" with the WP on my mind to finish it. Or something like that.. is very Ethereal to explain.. hmm is like a feeling.. hmm i have to feel the wallpaper to do it! damnnnnnnn The music help, sometimes i'm listen o "x thing" and ploP! then i started to thing on the wall I don't know! just born on my head alone! that idea, personage, serie, manga, whatever it is!!! is great !! (don't do that kid, oh no you can do it, DO IT!!!)

I use to open THE folder and search "oh what wall i will continue today? ahh what WP is this? i did that? owww ya remember!! oww nice! q wall from ·%%$"(/· great, ahh is not finished.. i must to complete this" and these"--- never mind, another day with patience"

I don't have patience, where is it?!! WHO stolem from me!! that's no fair!! now i have a excuse!! damn it!! I said it!! ------> cry-cry-sniff-sniff

I am such a cry baby.

Even so I am so agressive person, but nice ^^ don't get scared... wait! you!.. dont go away!!! youuuuuuuu! i will kick your ass... joke-joke.. ¬¬ no, is not.

Usually we are interrupted by work. Happen to you too. That's awful. Overall I love my work =D

It's obligatory to speak when the programs stop (crash), happens to all! But it is a sovereign kick in the balls that I do not have T_T and normally it happens when you forgets to "save", happens to me this way!oh Illustrator why you betray me? WHY!...

yeah.. I am too Empathic and everthing around me. "make me a sandwich. by G.I.R."

Solutions: Good mod! candy chocolate food sleep caricatures laugh and laugh and... see other works never open that file, after over 4 -6 months =) (the time is a variable) BEACH YESHHHHH Movie, cinema... AND BiShIES >///<

hyahooooooooo