With recent issues of depression, suicide and drug related offenses, we have come to face with an ever changing world of a new generation. Yet with little or no youth centres there is not so much teens can do. “My life is meaningless. I was also thinking suicidal.” FirestormII said.
“I did not know what to do so I decided to try out drugs” said Shinra-Soldi3r.

Don't think of cutting yourself with it. Think of creative things to do with it like making posters...


As of 2004, a new anime site was born, creating a new sanctuary for anime fans and even the people who don’t watch anime to socialize and be creative. “Eventually I started making friends… I simply found another reason to stay alive” FirestormII said.
Animepaper has not only become a Samaritan in itself but have also prevented us teens from becoming what we don’t want to be and even prevented them from leaving the world. It gives users strength in which they never knew they had. “The ultimate form of weakness is to give up on life and end it” Ironlynx said.
Not only serving as a preventive teen degradation site but also provide a place where we just be creative. “I found a way to practice my graphic skills in which my friends do not appreciate and that my school does not provide a subject to” Mint99 said.

This is a nice thing to read. *nodded*
Yes, I must say that suicide somehow being a usual thing in our daily life. I somehow feel that I want to suicide few days ago for unknown reason... When you hear that there's a student commit suicide because they fail in a lesson, that's not a new thing. When you hear that there's a woman commit suicide because her lover break her up because of unknown reason, it's also not something that we just heard. We already heard it for years!! I think the mental of the teenagers itself somehow weaken from years to years. Teenagers can be easily stress out now. The society somehow gives too much burden. The competition is too hard. You can't rest. You have to study. You have to be the smartest. You have to be the richest! You have to be the best!!

*silent*

And then, I do agree that AP is great site. It's a great place to learn. Not only to learn about how to make walls, but also how to socialize with others, how to share our experiences, and even how to live our lives... About me thinking of suicide... It's something that I can't tell to my friends. But I found a nice person who kindly help me to understand what happen to me. I learn a lot from some of my friends in AP that's older or younger than me. They somehow already be my best friends before I realize it. But if I may say, even the coin have two different sides. Every positive thing... can also have a negative side. Internet is a really interesting thing. And so is AP. If we can't control ourselves, we'll be addicted. I mean, let's just say that AP is a great site and you want to be here for as long as you can. Things in your real life become neglected. I'm going to take myself as an example.

For me, AP is the best things can ever happen to me. I always want to learn. I want to be a mangaka or an animator. But I always think that it's really hard. So I stop to try. I don't develop. My skill's not increased. AP is my first forum. AP makes me want to learn new things. AP open my eyes that I'm nothing. There're so much things I still have to learn to reach my dream. But at least I know that my dream isn't just a dream now. I have find a way to reach it with great friends beside me who I believe will help me when I need their help. But then, there's a point when I start to realize that the world around me become neglected. I go back home from school and then start to OL. Well, I sometimes doing it while doing my homework too, but most of the time, I'm doing it on purpose. Just to be at AP.

I realize that now, and I'm glad that it's not happen for a long time. I'm back with my friends and visiting AP when I have time. I'm trying to have some balance in it. I'm glad to be part of my real world, and of course... to be a part of AP. I'm glad that I can do some fun things in real world, and also in AP. There're some friends in real world that close to me because they're AP member. They start to asking things and we learn together. Well, I think 'balance' is a right keyword. My real world and AP are the best two things that I'll never neglect. AP is a great site.

Warm Regards, Yuki

Loneliness, fear, anger, heartaches and all other form of emotions that hurt us, human beings give way to emotional breakdown, and worst suicide.

Sometimes, its just hard to let our anger out, we can't even talk to someone about our problem and no one cares about us. Its when all those pain that we are feeling wants to burst and we can't let it out, we think of suicide and other things to make us loose those pain. We think of drugs and alcohol, and worst suicide.

For many times, i've thought of suicide, tried to attempt suicide, but in the end i'd stop and control myself. I search for other things to loose the pain or atleast lessen it, i play pc games to take my mind away from that idea, i play music and express those pains there. But still the loneliness is eating me alive. But, now after i discoverd AP, so many things changed, i am able to meet new friends and share the same interests. eventhough we came from different countries these people are helping me forget problems in life, and especially the loneliness.

But, i know that it wont fade that easily, and i know deep inside me that i would stay lonely but now atleast i can forget about it sometimes.

I once experienced talking to a person trying to attempt suicide, and the worst thing is that, he is my love. yes, he tried to attempt doing that, because of family problems and i was talking to him not to do it, to console him, i was talking to him in the phone! so i was really scared, how can i stop him if im just here talking in the other line. That time, i realized that its not good to just take your life away that easily. because eventhough you think that you're being ignored by everyone there will always be somebody who cares for you.

i think im going out of topic.. sorry..

actually, i like AP so much that my day is incomplete not visiting here. I like to stay here, like its a world different from that of reality, but at the same time, a world that teach us the things neglected by us. And now, i've learned to spend my time not just playing games but also making walls, and drawing arts. i am new here, just like a month, yep, eventhough i got registered 4months ago, i did not participate any discussions here, i just download wallpapers and never tried to visit the forums, i just neglected AP that time, but now, im here talking so much. YAY! Im glad that once a community called AP crossed my path and became a part of my life.

(^o^)V
-Jane