So who am I ..?

To keep things simple, I think of myself that I'm someone kind, smart and humble. With my friends (Well I have only one friend) I'm treated as being beautiful, sometimes nice, funny and intelligent.
The reality treats me as a lazy, silent, sad, boring and perfectionist person in everything (even in laziness!).
I love to make friends ♥, but not anyone, I choose them myself . I say this because I'm very allergic to dishonest people, so watch out >;3 !